Finding Out We Were Pregnant

Put text hThe first month was a ROUGH one for us. When they say you forget about the newborn phase, it is SO true. Plus, it is so much harder when you have another one at home that needs attention. All Greg and I seemed to remember was the happy moments and we seemed to forget the exhaustion and lack of sleep a little too quick. Blake did not sleep and when he did, for short periods, it came with the “eeeh eeh” sound constantly from his mouth. Blake was a very colicky baby so we spent a lot of time trying to figure out how to make him stop crying. Was it the breast milk or formula or lack of food or too much food? Was it reflux or was this normal? Does he hurt, is he tired? And of course, HOW LONG WAS THIS GOING TO LAST?! It was all just so exhausting.ere

I was a mess the first week coming home from the hospital. I think all I did was cry. So many tears. I had horrible baby blues-way worse than the first time. I think it was worse because not only did Blake not sleep well, but Grant was also waking up at 4 am most mornings because he apparently did not want to miss the party. After a few days in of just constant crying, I called my cousin Tracee, and she said “YOU NEED TO SLEEP!” So I spent two nights with my door closed and fan up high so I could not hear and just slept. After that, the crying finally stopped. It is amazing what a little sleep can do for your mental sanity.